hi , it's getting complicated now.
i thought that i am strong , but actually i am not . i am not at all. i try to push myself up everytime ppl put me down,but...
i've no one to look up for when i really need someone to support me, only Allah. i am mentally and physically tired with life. i dont know how to live my own life. people see me as a happy and complete person , but actually im not.
i dont easily trust people , thats why its hard for me to share my feelings . i'd rather keep it to myself but its too many to keep. why must everything end up this way ?
i dont know why i keep pretending . pretend that i am all ok . i miss all the wonderful moment i had and ofcourse some of the wonderful people i met . everything is now a memory, memory that had to be keep and remember.
i dont know how long more must i stay like this,life full of denials . sigh.
idk, what you really want from me , i dont know how else you want me to treat you . i dont know how nice you want me to treat you . as what i know , i treated u more thn enough . i entertain you everyday without fail , i was there whn ure down,
i am always there for you , i even sacrifice so many things for you . what else you want me to do ? i dont even have time for myself . as my time was occupied with so many things.
you were not there whn i was at my lowest . you even blame me and make me feel sorry and apologise to you whn at that moment , whre i really need someone to cheer me up . haish ..
cant hold my tears .. bye
